This whole living with bipolar + ADD thing is a doozy.
It's an added layer of difficulty to life. Trying to understand the naturally occurring highs and lows, attention/focus lapses, triggers, diet and sleep issues, what helps, what doesn't, how to arrange my schedule and life to maximize my productivity/some semblance of living... in addition to the regular responsibilities and concerns of adult life.
It is a P R O C E S S.
And one that only truly begins once you know it's there. I'd been struggling for years wondering why balance was always so elusive for me. After being diagnosed, so much then made sense about my personality and decisions I've made. But then the real work began.
How to form a life that is not entirely dictated by the whims of my malfunctioning brain.
It's been about 10 months, and I have JUST realized that certain days of the week are fairly consistently low, and I need to work around that. How long was this happening prior to my being made aware of it? Who knows. But I am now, so I can do something about it.
This is a daily, weekly, hourly... moment by moment struggle... to find, achieve, and maintain some semblance of balance. And that gets exhausting.
But, I'm learning.
I'm not sure what sparked this, but I felt compelled to share- and it's #truthytuesday, so what better day to share? If you are dealing with a newly diagnosed mental illness as well, please hang in there and understand that this is a process. Not a quick one, but you can do it. 💛
-Danni
